Insomnia decided to pay me a visit tonight. And a big roach just climbed up my leg! Aargh..!Hmm..anyways, the guy who wanted to settle down with me, he send me an sms yesterday wishing me good morning and to have a beautiful day. It's unlike him to suddenly msg me this way and especially at a time when he would usually be snoring in bed so I asked what's up with the msg? And he said that he was awaken and the first person that came to his mind was me and hence, the sms. He's been acting sweet that it scares the hell out of me! Haha...I mean, he knows that my feelings for him are purely mutual and I have even been treating him like a real guy pal - swear words, rough unladylike behaviour included - all in the hope that he realise I truly treat him nothing more than a friend. But I have to hand it to him. Other guys would have disappeared by then after fighting what seemed like a losing battle to win me over. But he's still around. I appreciate his friendship but I don't want to give him any false hopes. I already told him that but I think he harbours the thought that if he tries hard enough and if he still keeps me as part of his life, I might be moved one day to finally be able to accept him. Sigh..I don't know. I try to imagine us together and we might even make a happy pair but my heart can't accept him. Not now and.......not ever?? Fate has a funny way of finding its way to you so I guess I'll just let it be for now..