I realised that I was just crapping in my last post. Well, most of it anyways. Now, let's see if I can post something better and something more interesting. (a long pause here) Ok, nothing much actually. (as usual) Hmmm..come to think of it, my life is mostly routine. Don't want to sound too depressing here but it is! And I used to be a volunteer with the Children's Cancer Society in order to make my life more meaningful. I have stopped because of the distance and also because the parents of these sick children - mostly singaporeans - sometimes made me wish they were the ones who were sick and not their kids.

Hey, maybe I should start working with these kids again. That and also continue with my motorcycle lessons. Which, by the way, is already 2 years old. I always say to my friends that I'm supporting the driving centre financially because I keep renewing the course without going for the lessons regularly. And I only have 3 more lessons to go! I really, really should try to motivate my butt to do down to the driving centre more often. Bleh.

And what else can I do to make my life more fulfilled? Have an active night life? Check. (not doing that too much now) Get to know more people say, guys? (Done that and they don't make my life more meaningful. In fact, they are the very reason why I sometimes feel life sucks) Spend more quality time with family? (Who am I kidding? I can't stay in the same room with two of my sisters without one of them getting on my nerves) I've run out of ideas here. I guess, the only way to feel truly satisfied with my own existence is to 'cleanse' my inner self. Just feel happy. And be happy and not expect too much out of life or anyone. This way, I won't have to deal with too much disappointments. Like what they always say, "Live your life like it is the last.." It will not be easy but I could at least, try. I'm sure I'll be able to embrace life even more if I only have one day to live.

Now, if today is my last day on earth, what would I wanna do right this very moment? ... :D Gonna get myself that tub of chocolate ice-cream that's already in my fridge! Hehehe....

The Reason We're Put on This Earth..

Ok..the title of this post is supposed to end with a "?" Make that "????.." Sigh..don't you ever wonder why you're being born especially when things aren't going the way you would like them to? Ok..this may seem a tad too dramatic but this is what I always asked myself whenever I feel down in the dumps. And I have to be pretty much way, way down in the dumps to ask myself this mind-boggling question.

I always believe things happened for a reason or that there is always a blessing in disguise or that there will eventually be a light at the end of the tunnel or..you get my drift..but seriously, I'm sure we're all placed on this mysterious earth for a reason. Be it to bring happiness (or hell) to someone's life or just to be one of the numbers of the world's population. Sigh..especially now..whenever I steal a glance at Fazli, I'll be asking myself "Why am I being introduced in your life? Are we going to be together in the end and live happily ever after? And if we're not, then why did our paths crossed?" There's got to be a reason..again, things happened for a reason. Am I supposed to teach him a thing or two and vice versa? Are we supposed to learn someting valuable from each other? Maybe. And if one day, things don't go the way I would like them to, I should really remind myself that God just has other plans for me.

If we turned out to just be a fleeting presence in each other's lives, I do hope that we'll be able to figure out why our paths crossed in the first place. Right now, I'm hanging in there, fighting the evil 'twin' that raged within once in a while, especially so when we have our couples' tiffs. I don't know..I do really want this relationship to work but at the same time, I'm constantly reminded that no one can predict the future. Of course, we also believe that we have to fight for our future, even if, everything have been pre-destined.

My bf doesn't know I have a blog. And I'm not ready to tell him yet. Guess it's still too personal..but if I do tell him one day, it means that I'm ready to share more of myself with him. And "Fazli, if you do read my blogs one day, maybe you'll finally realised I'm not as strong hearted/headed and unfeeling as I sometimes make myself out to be. I am only human..and whose feelings for you have developed so strongly, she's afraid to acknowledge it...."

A Lil' Update..

Wow..it's been awhile since I last posted. Been really busy I guess and not really much things to write about. Things have been good so far..work and love life. No wait, maybe I should rephrase that. Urgh! Don't know what I'm trying to say. Work - I'm just hanging in there. A friend gave me a newspaper clipping the other day. It was a job for a kindergarten teacher. She knew how much I wanted to be one and therefore cut out the advertisement for me. It was perfect. I filled the criterias and if I got the job, they will send me for the Certificate in Pre-school teaching as well.

The thing is, Fazli have been saying how much he wants to settle down and he have actually spoken to his parents about it. So if I were to take up the teaching job, I know I can forget about marriage and all that coz with the measly pay, it would take forever for me to save up. I asked him how serious he is in settling down with me coz I was prepared to earned a lower pay. It was after all, something I have always wanted to do. He reassured me again about his intentions. So yeah..I had to make a big sacrifice. I gave up trying for the job. Maybe I might still be able to be a kindergarten teacher one day once I've settled down.

I hope the sacrifice is worth it. Our relationship hasn't always been smooth sailing and there are times when I have doubts. But we always managed to talk it out. That's the good thing, I guess. I have to learn to be more patient and more tolerant though and sometimes, it's hard. Not after all the shit I had to go through. Well..hope things will be better and seriously, I hope giving up my dream better be worth it!

One year older..

So now I'm 27..how time flies. 3 more years to go before I reach the BIG 30. :p I guess I really shouldn't be thinking too much about it. Age, is just a number after all. What did I do on my birthday? Well, I slept half of the day and I spend the rest of the day in front of the tv. Boring eh? No thanks to my on and off fever and flu. Been sick for the past one week. And just when I thought I was getting better, my throat started to feel like I have swallowed needles and everytime I got up from a chair or bed, my head would be pounding.

A good thing I was feeling slightly better when I went to Bintan again last Wednesday with Fazli (bf). Was supposed to go on my birthday but had to changed it a day earlier coz Fazli had a test on that day. I was still nursing a flu but it wasn't serious enough to keep me in bed. The room we had wasn't as nice as the ones I got when I was there the first two times. And, it actually rained! Luckily it wasn't raining cats and dogs and our moods were not dampened by the slight drizzle. We didn't really do much activities. We took pictures and videos of ourselves and laid on the hammock and just enjoyed the sea breeze. It was pretty relaxing and romantic, I guess. :) I've uploaded some of the pics in friendster. Didn't really take much pictures since it was so tiring and slightly annoying trying to make Fazli smile for the camera! Haha..Usually he will just stare into the camera straight face or make funny faces but will never smile. I'm proud to say that I've finally made him bare his teeth for the camera. Heh.

It's been fun going on this trip with him and I think we may have learned a little bit more about each other. Since we were together for only two days and one night, we did not really annoy each other that much. In fact, we have grown to be more comfortable around each other. I can even dig my nose in front of him now without feeling embarrased! Hehe..Would love to go on a longer trip with him in the future and I'm sure a long trip would test our characters and our tolerance towards each other.

So happy 27th birthday to me! :p (though it's already a week over) Gonna pamper myself, as usual..oh, actually I already have. I bought myself a very expensive Coach bag as a birthday gift to myself. Don't even ask me how much it costs..urgh! But it feels nice to be able to splurge on myself like that and knowing that I don't need to rely on anyone to buy me expensive gifts, although it would be much nicer to have someone buy you expensive items. :) And my bf bought me an mp4 player that I wanted so even though I did not really celebrate my birthday, at least I got some neat prezzies! :D

Not quitting!

So I have decided not to resign..yet. Actually, I've already tendered my resignation wef 2nd April and was already looking forward to my 'long holiday.' As usual, I talked to my stupid District Manager and I told him that I will only consider staying on if I'm transferred to an internal dept. After our talk, he had the cheek to ask if it was because of my just-as-stupid in-charge that I'm resigning and I told him it's partly the reason. I would have loved to say that it was also because of him straight to his face but since they were still looking at my options, I decided to keep mum.

A few days after, I met up with my HOD for another meeting. I was glad that it was a meeting only between the two of us and that my District Manager, aka butthole was not around. At first, I just told her that the reason I wanna quit was because I wanted to gain more exposure outside working in a different environment. It wasn't until we got deeper into the conversation that I told her the truth - I couldn't stand working under my manager and my in-charge. As usual, she was nice enough to listen to my woes and even promised to talk to my manger about his work attitude and even asked me to email her if I find my manager's attitude to be 'funny'. She even shared with me about her own working experience, some of which are confidential. She actually started out as an admin, and worked her way up to where she is now, a Head of Dept.

Since she was really sincere in helping me out, I decided to stay on. And maybe follow her advise to attain a few certificates available while I'm with the company so that if I really wanna leave one day, at least I wouldn't be leaving empty-handed. I feel a little inspired after talking to her and though I'm not interested in the types of certificates that my company have to offer, I'm going to give it a go, as a favour to my HOD and of course, to myself. And I do feel a little more appreciated. I mean, if I'm really a poor performing staff, I don't think she would try to convince me to stay right? I wasn't feeling motivated enough to go to work for the past few months and would report to work late almost everyday and I really thought she wasn't going to ask me to stay. The fact that she did, makes me feel good.

Some of my colleagues were happy to learn that I will not be resigning. When they knew of my intention to hand in my resignation letter, they tried to convinced me to stay but I was adamant. Well..I hope my decision to stay will be a blessing. I'll have to make an effort to come to work early though since I no longer am counting down to my final days in my company. Oh well..at least, I'll be counting down to my birthday and a getaway to Bintan again! :D More of that, in my next blog...:)

Racer for a day..

Yay! Finally I got a chance to drive a Go-Kart. :D Went to Batam last Sunday with my colleagues. It was fun but VERY tiring! It was due to the fact that I only had 3 hours of sleep the night before and had to get up at 5am. I almost contemplated not going for the trip at all but since I have never been to Batam, I just dragged myself out of bed.

First stop was to a water sports centre, where we lazed around while some of my colleagues tried para-sailing. Would have loved to try it or go on the jet ski even but I was not dressed for any water sports. Plus, I'm afraid of heights. But I know I wanna give it a go some day. After that we went for the Go-Kart racing. Since our group was quite big, we separated into two groups. The first group of ten 'racers' went first and boy! was I glad I decided to be in the second group. The first group were made up of mostly young teenagers and 9 of them were guys. Put them in racing cars and I'm sure you can imagine how they drove. There were quite a few mishaps but nothing serious happened. It was fun watching the aspiring racers though. My group however, were more cautious. The moment I drove off, my engine stalled coz I let go of the accelerator totally. It happened twice actually, when I thought I was going too fast. At first, it was pretty scary especially during the corners and bends. The first time I drove around a corner, I misjudged the speed and if I had lost my cool, I think I would have spiralled out of control. I felt more comfortable after a few laps and would even speed when driving on a straight road. Who needs a license eh? :p

We went shopping after that and were so happy to find A&W!! Though I wasn't hungry, I still ordered a root beer float and a waffle ice-cream! Hehe..By the end of the day though, I was thinking of my bed. I was so shagged that I couldn't wait to get on the ferry and head back home. The lack of sleep and the scorching heat gave me a headache. I was so tired that the moment I cleared the immigration I walked straight to the taxi stand and did not even feel tempted to shop at harbourfront though there were a few items and clothes that caught my eye.

It had been an enjoyable trip and an eye-opener as well. Seeing the state in which most of the people in Batam lived, I feel even more blessed. No matter what, I should always feel grateful. We Singaporeans are indeed lucky..

Tremors!

Something kinda cool happened yesterday afternoon. I experienced my first earth tremor. Ok, it's not something that people would call cool, but I have always wondered what it would feel like to feel the earth move. No, I don't wish to experience a real earthquake..just the tremors will do. I wasn't aware of the first tremor because I think I was in the washroom. Either that, or I was too busy staring into space to actually feel anything and I was whining to my colleague about missing out on the experience.

I was eating lunch with my colleagues when one of them asked "Do you feel it?" At first, I shot him a blank look and that was when I felt the table moved. It lasted a few seconds longer than the first tremor, I was told, and it did felt like it went on for quite a while. Now I know what they meant when they say that though an incident lasted for only a few minutes, it felt like hours. It was scary coz we were like, "Hey, how come the shaking is not stopping?" We were in an old building after all and even if it was just a few seconds of tremors that we felt, it was still pretty scary. Not knowing if the ceiling was gonna collapsed on you. The management of the building told us that they would monitor the situation and we would be evacuated if there was a need to. I was hoping that we would be evacuated so we would not have to work! But no such luck.

If experiencing tremors was scary enough, I'm sure experiencing a real earthquake would be even more terrifying. I hope our little island will never have to experience nature's fury...

Bintan getaway..

Went for a short getaway to Bintan last weekend with a friend. It was my second time there and I stayed at the same resort. This time however, it was pretty much relaxed compared to the last time I was there. Besides swimming in the pool, I had gone for an hour's All Terrain Vehicle ride through the jungle and the beach (which left me feeling sore for two days) followed by a massage and pedicure. But last weekend I only spend some time in the swimming pool and went for a manicure and pedicure. I was surprised I still felt tired though. Maybe it was because of the lack of sleep. We also spend a lot of time being cam whores. :) You can check out the pictures at www.ringo.com Just to remind you again, key in my email address, juz_someone@hotmail.com under the Find a Friend tab. I didn't really take a lot of photos since I stayed at the same resort and I had already taken some pictures when I was there last year.

The ferry ride back home was kinda rough. Felt like I was on a roller coaster and my friend and I had to rub axe oil on our noses to block out the distinct smell of vomit from a passenger who had puked. If not for the axe oil and sour plums that we had, I think both of us would have joined in the vomitting session. In fact, even on the way to Bintan, there were some passengers who had puked. Strange, considering the fact that I did not see anyone empty their stomach contents during my first trip there.

Next month, I'll be going on a one day company trip to Batam with my colleagues. Never been there and I'm looking forward to it. We'll be going to Waterfront and I hope I'll get to ride the Go-Kart! Micheal Schummacher (not sure if I got his name right) here I come! ;p The following month after that, I might travel somewhere again. Not really sure where to though. I'm waiting for the NATAS Travel and Tours exhibition so I could check out the various destinations on offer. My boyfriend's already complaining about how he should have met me much earlier, before I had all these trips planned. He was whining about how he was not able to talk long hours on the phone with me when I left for Bintan, though it was only for two days one night. And he couldn't bear the thought that I might be gone for at least a week in April. Haha..I think he's sweet..but too bad, I already had the 'Places I wanna visit while I'm still single" motto instilled in my mind before he came along. If things work out really well between us, I may have to pull a tight rein on my expenses and won't be able to travel so much anymore. We'll see how it goes..only time will tell..*shrug* Right now, I just wanna pamper myself as best as I can, before I have or make any commitments.

Okay..gotta get ready soon to meet my boyfriend. It's raining now..hope the weather won't take a turn for the worse. Most importantly, hope our 'date' today will turn out great!

Bad and Good News...

Been awhile since I last posted an entry. Nothing interesting or out of the ordinary have been happening and I have been having quite a busy social life. Speaking of which, on Valentine's day, I went out with a friend for dinner at Chijmes. It felt kinda surreal. Though it was somewhat a casual date, it was the first time someone took me to a nice, cozy restaurant. We ordered a set meal for two and the 3 course meal took two hours! We had to wait for quite some time before our next dish was served even though we finished each meal in less than half and hour as the restaurant was packed.

Later at night, I headed for a girls nite out at MOS. And this, by far was the worse clubbing experience ever! Not only did I misjudged my alcohol limit, which caused me to be dead drunk, I lost my IC (again!) and got separated from my friends and was left alone in the end. Ok, I lost my whole purse actually. And it was my favourite clutch bag that I bought from Australia! Urgh!! Must have dropped it while I was making my way to the washroom. To cut a long story short, I spend only 10 - 15 minutes on the dance floor and the rest, sleeping in the toilet and outside of the club puking my guts out. I saw one of my friend emptying her guts beside me and there were a couple of guys trying to help us. It was all a blur actually and I think I fell in and out of sleep. The next thing I knew, my friends were gone. Turns out my friend's friend took her home and left me on the pavement! A security who worked there took care of me and gave me sour plums and plain water. He offered to send me home, no..he said that one of his friends who stayed in the same area as me will send me home if I could not contact anyone to fetch me. A good thing I still have my hp and a good thing in my drunken state, I could still dial the number of the only person who was on my mind. Otherwise, I wouldn't know what might happened should I risk taking a lift from a complete stranger.

He was on night shift actually and all I could mumbled to him was that I was alone, with no money on me and no way to get home. He wanted me to take a cab and make my way to his workplace so he could give me some money but I told him I could barely stand. In the end, he had to take urgent leave from work and took a cab down. I have been drunk before but never this bad. I was so frustrated with myself for letting myself lose control. To think I had to be taken care of by strangers! I'm lucky that I was not taken advantage of or anything like that. So yeah..the bad news is that I lost my IC again and since I've already lost it 3 times, I might be investigated if I lost it again so I'm really hoping some kind soul would send my IC back to me. I think I'm going to lay off clubbing in the meantime. Think I might hang up my dancing shoes even. I've been saying how I wanna club a lot till the moment where I can say I've had enough. And I think, this is it. I don't think I can even look at alcohol the same way again.

Oh yeah..the good news? Well..I didn't really wanna tell anyone too early yet. Only a few people knew and I thought I would break the news to the rest of my friends only much later. But it's been a really crazy and bad week that I thought I should end it with something worth smiling about. Well....I'm now attached! Now..now..don't get too excited. We officially became a couple only yesterday, on the 16th of February. The guy who had to come to my rescue when I was drunk was him. It made me realised that not many guys would take leave from work in the early hours to fetch a drunk girl home. He really took care of me and made sure I reached home safely. This act of kindness - and dare I say love? - prompted me to give him a chance. I know you guys are curious about how we met and all that. I'll write about it later aite. And I know my hp's gonna ring the moment someone read this! Haha..so yeah. I guess whatever happened was kinda a blessing in disguise. So wish me luck yeah..for me to get my IC back and for this newfound relationship. Hope everything will turn out well in the end...

I do..I don't..?

I had a long talk with a friend the other day. As usual the topic about relationships came out, particularly marriage. We were talking about other people's experiences and we sure had a lot of bad examples to quote. It made us come to the conclusion that marriage is a gamble. Cliche, but when you think about it, it really is a BIG risk. Just when you think you know your partner well enough, a few years down the road, he/she may turned out to be way different from the person you took your vows with. A friend who went through a bitter divorce, told me that after more than ten years of marriage, she never expected that she had married a monster. Scary, isn't it? Marriage, to me is a beautiful, sacred thing but human beings are the ones who marred the image of this otherwise perfect union.

I would loved to get married to that special someone and lived happily ever after but how many of us can really stand up and say that tying the knot with their partner is the best thing that has ever happened to them - after 10 years of marriage? I'm sure there are some people out there who will be able to say this without hesitation but there are only a few. The rare few. I have heard so many horror stories and so few fairytales. As much as I wanna get hitched, hearing the bad experiences of these people makes me shudder. Makes me think twice about settling down. And I'm sure my mom wouldn't want to hear this from me. It also depends on one's luck, I guess. There are some people who still look at their partner lovingly despite being together for donkey years, and there are some who decided to change 'flavour' even after just one or two years of marriage.

Sigh....where are the good old days of 'till death do us part'? It hurts when your life partner dies and leave you but it hurts even more if a third party is involved. Which is why, although I have seen my mom go through hell when my dad passed away, I would much rather my future partner croaked than have him leave me for another slut. As with all relationships, there are bound to be problems. Especially so in marriage but would a couples' love be strong enough to overcome any obstacles? I guess, only time will tell. And only time will tell if I would be ready to take that life changing plunge, if/when I have to make that decision...

Dream job down the drain..

Was supposed to go for an interview last Thursday but I overslept! Think it was somewhat a blessing in disguise that I woke up late coz when I called the interviewer (who I think is the boss as well) to ask if we could re-schedule another appointment, she came across as a stuck up bitch. Oh, the position was for a full time teacher at a children development/enrichment centre. Our job I think, is basically to lead activities like singing, arts and play between parent and child. I have always wanted to work in an environment where I'll be surrounded with kids. The only hurdle was that when she called me to go for the interview, she asked me to prepare a story-telling and a song. Story-telling, I can handle but to sing in public, now that's like the ultimate fear factor for me. Even if it's just to sing nursery rhyme or something. Leave me alone with the kids and I'm sure I'll do just fine. Superb, in fact but to sing in front of the interviewers and most probably the parents as well, I knew I would suck at it.

Anyways, I went to the centre two days before the day of the interview just to check out the place. It was my dream 'office' - a playground for toddlers/kids. The place was already closed but there was one lady who was still in the office. When she locked up the place for the night, I got a good look at her. She was dressed in a formal office attire and I think she might be the one who was supposed to interview me. I must say, I don't really like her face. And when I talked to her on the phone, all the more she convinced me that she might be one tough shit to work with. She was hesitant when I asked if I could perhaps set another date for an interview coz I lied that I was not feeling well. I even told her that I could come down later that afternoon just to make things easy for her but she didn't want me to. Instead, she said that I should have told her earlier and not last minute. Urm...do we know when we are going to fall sick btw? Ok, I lied but what if I was really sick?? To think she works with kids and yet I don't hear any compassion in her voice. Bitch. Explains why they still have not found someone even though they advertised for the position more than a month ago.

I actually felt kinda relieved that I didn't go for the interview although I would have loved to snag the job. At least I don't have to sing in public! I mean, I'm sure with time and if I was hired, I would be able to just open my mouth and sing. After all it's just singing to kids and as for the parents, I don't think they expect a Mariah Carey or Whitney Houston to sing to their kids. It's just that knowing that I would have to sing and be observed by the interviewer at the same time really freaked me out. I'm a bit disappointed with myself for not rising up to the challenge but at the same time, I'm glad I don't have to face the stupid interviewer/boss. Thankfully I still have my job so in the meantime I'll just have to keep looking. Adios!

Blank..

Ok, it's 3am in the morning and I'm still sitting in front of the computer. Kept telling myself..no.. actually, my body have been telling me to get some sleep but I can't seemed to pull myself away from the darn internet. My mind is tired and I still have not taken out my contact lenses. Feeling exhausted that I don't even know what to name this blog and so, the title that you see here. Oh, almost forgot the reason why I logged in. Wanted to let you great peeps know that I'm ok. I know some of you are kinda worried when you read my previous post but don't worry. I actually woke up the very next day feeling as usual, if not better. I don't even see the need to cry anymore. Don't wanna waste precious tears especially since I'm prone to dehydration eh! Keke..Anyways, here's a little joke. It still makes me laugh no matter how many times I've read it. See if you're able to make sense of it yeah. Enjoy and..*yaaawwnnn*.. gd nite!

Dear Ah Lian,
Thanks you for your letter. Wrong time no see you. How everything? For me, I am quiet find. You say in your letter your taukeh soh want you to chain your look? Somemore you must wear kick kok soo, hope you can wok properly.

You know, Ah Kau Kia working in a soft where company now. Last week, he take I, Muthu & few of his friend to May Nonut to eat barger. After that he take we all go to kalah ok. Muthu sing and sing no stop until the sky bright. Next week, my father mother going to sellerbread 20 years annie wear sari. My father mother going to give a fist to all the kampong people. So you must come with your hole family.

I only hope one day we no need to write and send letter to you and to me. Better I e-meow you, you e-meow me. I will ketchup with you soon. And when you got time, please few free to call me. Goo bye.....

Worm regard, Ah Beng

Tears No More..

Went to MOS (again) yesterday night since I had ticket for free entry. The queue was damn looonng...but luckily we met a group of people nice enough to let us joined them so we didn't really had to queue very long compared to the rest. Met some gals and guys from WG and I must say, some of them looked very different from their pics and I could hardly recognise them. It was fun being able to meet them in person at last. Yay! More gal friends and more clubbing kakis! I was having the time of my life and for the first time I actually flirted with the bartender and me and my friend took turns giving him a peck on the cheek! It was really fun doing such girly stuff. :D However, the night ended with a sour note because I found out something about a person whom I thought might be different. Learned about it after I bumped into him in the club. What a bloody coincidence.

It made me realised I have actually succeeded in achieving what I've always wanted - to be very strong emotionally. When it happened, I just stood there. Tears have somewhat formed in my throat and the amazing thing was that they didn't flow. I just couldn't cry. It happened a few times and yet nothing happened. And now I just feel numb. I knew that I was capable of being this way sooner or later but I never expected how it would make me feel. Apart from the numbness, I feel scared. To not be able to feel any sadness. Pain, sure but like I've said before, only for a few fleeting minutes and then it's gone. I feel almost like..a zombie.

Don't worry it's not like I've totally zonked out or something but I just feel..empty...numb. No wonder they say that human beings need to feel sadness or pain in order to feel alive. I'm glad I don't shed tears easily now but it hurts all the same coz I can't release the tension or the pain. Crying helps to make one feel better and I can't even do that. Not because I don't want to but I just can't. And now my throat and chest hurts from all the buildup tears that refused to flow freely. I can only blame myself. Warning bells have been triggering in my head but I chose to ignore it. I just never expected to learned it from others - almost complete strangers, to be exact. (I'm thankful for their concerns though) I never expected me to be 'one of the girls' and now, it really is going to be much, much harder for someone to invade me emotionally. Not when I have grown numb when it comes to affairs of the heart.

On a lighter note, the night ended with 4 or 5 gorgeous transvestites hurling abuses and punches and kicks at one another. They were cursing in thai, in their manly voices and while kicking at one another, my friend told me that in the midst of the fight one of them had her silicon boobs exposed. Guessed it happened when someone pulled her tube dress. It happened a few times but dang..I never saw it! Hehe..I'm sure it must be uhm..educational to see fake boobies 'live'. They were really pretty but hell..they can't beat us real women! :p Besides, they sure entertained us and the rest of the clubbers with their free-style kungfu. Haaiiiiiyak..!!

Sick - Physically and of Work..

I'm at home now, on two days medical leave. And yes, I was on 3 days medical leave just last week. This time though, I was really not feeling well. I discovered spots of blood in my urine a few days ago. Turned out I had a bad infection. So now forcing myself to gulp down huge amounts of plain water. Which of course, is a very hard thing for me to do. Constantly reminding myself of the last urine infection that I had - which landed me in the hospital for a week. Almost tempted to not take the medication properly so I could be hospitalised again. Hehe..crazy, I know but it sure beats going to work!

I'm seriously beginning to hate getting up for work. I have become a habitual latecomer and I actually don't care. I'm trying to find all my certs (where the heck are they?!) so that I can start applying for jobs. I sure hope I'll find them soon before I get my ass fired. My job is pretty easy and relaxed actually and I know there are people out there who would kill to be in my position. It's been two and a half years since I joined this company and I guess it really is time to move on. It's also due to the fact that I absolutely HATE/DESPISE my district manager. This is me. Once someone who is not worthy of my respect comes onboard, I'll start to slack. It's actually easy to get him off my case. I just have to come to work on time but I can't seemed to do that now. The only way I can think of is to get me a new job. Everything happens for a reason and who knows, I might be more happier in a new environment. So, wish me luck guys!

Btw I have posted pictures in another website. Do visit it. www.ringo.com Key in my email address which is juz_someone@hotmail.com under the Find a friend tab.

Honda Accord Commercial..

Would like to share this with you guys. I have copied details about the commercial here. Read about it first before you click on the link. Cool stuff man...

This is one clever Honda commercial..Be sure to read the info first, and then watch the clip. And you thought those people that set up roomfuls of dominos to knock over were amazing. There are no computer graphics or digital tricks in the film. Everything you see really happened in real time exactly as you see it.The film took 606 takes. On the first 605 takes, something, usually very minor, didn't work. They would then have to set the whole thing up again. The crew spent weeks shooting night and day. By the time it was over, they were ready to change professions. The film cost six million dollars and took three months to complete including full engineering of the sequence. In addition, it's two minutes long so every time Honda airs the film on British television, they're shelling out enough dough to keep any one of us in clover for a lifetime. However, it is fast becoming the most downloaded advertisement in Internet history. Honda executives figure the ad will soon pay for its self simply in "free viewings" (Honda isn't paying a dime to have you watch this commercial!). When the ad was pitched to senior executives, they signed off on it immediately without any hesitation - including the costs.There are six and only six hand-made Honda Accords in the world. To the horror of Honda engineers, the filmmakers disassembled two of them to make the film. Everything you see in the film (aside from the walls, floor ramp, and complete Honda Accord) is parts from those two cars.The voiceover is Garrison Keillor. When the ad was shown to Honda executives, they liked it and commented on how amazing computer graphics have gotten. They fell off their chairs when they found out it was for real. Oh, and about those funky windshield wipers. On the new Accords, the windshield wipers have water sensors and are designed to start doing their thing automatically as soon as they become wet.

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/honda.php

Nite of the Living Dead..

I followed a friend to a club last weekend. And mind you, it was no ordinary club..it was ahem...a dangdut club! :p (clubs playing mostly fast indonesian/malay numbers and infamous for their more 'matured' crowd and over the top swinging of hips and butts) I know...I know...what the hell was I thinking?? Those were my very thoughts as I made my way to the club. It was my first experience being in such a club and I must say it was quite an eye opening experience. Of course I wasn't thinking of clubbing. I just followed because my friend asked me to accompany him who, in turn, was accompanying his friend. Anyways, the moment I stepped in I had to stifle a smirk. In fact, the moment I sat down I was laughing. I have never seen a dance floor filled with a lot of aunties, uncles and possibly grannies and grandpas as well. I couldn't control my laughter and my friend had to remind me to be more discreet. I kept smiling throughout as I watched some of the 'groovy' moves the old people were doing. Soon, it started to sink in and I didn't find the whole scenario in front of me funny anymore. In fact, it was..scary. There I was, watching people who should have been at home, relaxing with children or grandchildren and who should be doing more fulfilling things to pass their already not-so-much time on earth. I actually felt afraid. What is the world coming to?!

It's ok if a senior still wants to have fun and still wants to put on his/her dancing shoes but alcohol included?? Ang mohs or other races drinking till their ripe old age, I can brush aside but my people?? As I watched their antics, I kept telling myself to never be like them. God forbid! Which is why I'm now more convinced than ever that I should club till I drop so that I'll have enough fun and am able to enjoy the rest of my life doing more meaningful and fun things, other than clubbing. I can never emphasize enough about this - clubbing hard in my twenties till I decide I never want to step in a club anymore. The group that I was with - there was a mother and daughter team, the daughter and her fiance and their aunts/uncles. It was somewhat a family affair. It's actually sweet to see a mother and daughter dancing together but like I said, the booze is just not right. I wouldn't want to be drinking with my mom! They were nice people - I'll call them seniors - which is why I had to pretend that seeing them like that was the norm to me.

We then headed to another dangdut club called silver tortoise together with the same group. There were more youngsters in this club but bad all the same. There, the seniors openend bottles and drank some more and smoked. Believe me, it wasn't a pleasant sight seeing people old enough to be your parents or grandparents being tipsy. I must say though, that I'm glad I actually went to such clubs. At least, I've learned a valuable lesson - to never end up like them. The image of them will certainly be embedded in my mind. Friends, if a few years say, 20-30 years down the road you still see me grooving on the dance floor, please, please, pleaaaase knock some sense into me will ya? Even better, dig up this old blog of mine and let me read what I wrote about old people who, despite of their age and growing bellies, still behaved like teens. This should be able to drill some sense into me should alzheimer make me do things that I would frown upon. Trust me, if I'm actually still a dancing granny, I must be suffering from some old person's disease. Period.

Well, I'm not exactly a saint either but I do hope that these people will come to their senses soon. They really seemed like a bunch of nice people and I would have loved to have met them under different circumstances. I don't know why I named this blog Nite of the Living Dead. It was my first time seeing so many aged folks on a dance floor and that image...well, made me think of a scene in this particular movie.

Glimpses of 2006..

I was going to just write about what I did on New Year's eve but I thought I should just list down all the things that have happened in all of 2006. Let me see if I can recall some of the happiest, craziest, saddest and just plain...well, I don't know..weird moments I guess..if any. Let me see..

All I can remember in 2006, apart from the tears, heartbreaks and letting the wrong people in my life, I think all these have taught me valuable life lessons. Am beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel and as much as I curse the people who have induced heartaches in me, I have come out pretty strong amidst all the emotional adversity. And I can actually say that I'm glad things turned out the way they did. I don't have any faith in relationships anymore, and even if I may have missed out on all the good things that come with it, I guess it's better this way - not letting anyone in my life again. Friends, I know what's going through your mind while reading this but..well..introduce me to someone who will succeed in changing my perspectives on relationship! *hint-hint*. Haha.. :p I mean, I'm still meeting people and kinda letting them in my life but not emotionally so yeah..go figure. :)

Ok, enough of the weepy stories. At least I got to do a bit of travelling and lotsa clubbing and dating and kissing..haha. I also attended my first D&D, saw Keagan Kang who was in the same plane with me on the way to Australia, (and I've been a fan of his since) spending money like water and just pampering myself. So yeah, all in all it have been a pretty good year. Oh, I celebrated countdown in the train station with two of my friends, Imah and Peifen. Haha..missed the whole thing! At least I had fun in MOS. The R&B room was damn packed and I could hardly move or breathe even - the cons of standing at 1.57m - my high heels didn't really give me much leverage. Anyways, I was fine with the crowd. Irritatingly squeezy, but fun nonetheless. Of course, I wished that people who can't even move to the beat of R&B shouldn't be allowed in the room. There was this fat, smelly girl who was trying to dance sexy and managed to get a guy's attention by letting him suck on her finger, two girls who actually kissed each other and they did this after a guy showed interest in one of them. Helloooo! I know it's a common thing in a club but what the hell were they thinking?? Trying to turn the guy on? Maybe they are lesbos...but who cares! Moving on..oh and I lost $12 bucks! My fault. Should have put the money in my bag but I placed the dough in my pocket and while dancing, there were some horny asses who were gyrating against me and I think maybe one of them got more than just a hard on. Damn.

I partied till 5am and I met someone in there..but that's just another story. A story that I don't even feel like writing about. Maybe I might, later. So yeah, that's 2006 for you. It wasn't a very good one year but at the very least, I have come out a stronger person and am ready to face 2007. I admit the events of last year have somehow changed me. I don't know how to explain it. The good thing is of course, being more stronger emotionally but it doesn't really make me a better person. Not in the way I had hoped but I'm just a human being after all. People have different ways of coping and picking themselves up. My ways however, are nothing to be proud of. Heck! As long as I know what I'm doing, (do I?) I guess nothing else matters.

So..it's 2007. A brand new year. Though it doesn't feel like one. I do know for a fact though, that I'm going to travel again, party hard, and guard my heart against hurt. I'm still open to dating and meeting new people and all but relationship wise, well..guess we'll just have to wait and see what 2007 have in store for me eh. Cheers!

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEEPS!!

Ok, this may have come a little late but well..as what they always say, better late than never. So....HAPPY, HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Oh, and not forgetting...HAPPY HARI RAYA HAJI!! :) Have a great 2007.....